Soooooo......... I know a lot of you have no idea about this, and thats because thats the way I wanted it. I do NOT like to share often. Unless I have to. And since moving back home is not something I can hide, I have to tell whats going on. Its kind of bad that I am GOOD at making it seem like everything is okay, even when its not.

I, according to a counselor and a doctor, have Severe Depression, and General Anxiety Disorder. I am on medication, commonly considered 'happy pills' and it has been recommended that I take therapy.

I dont really wanna explain the why's. There is too many to go through, and this has all been a long time brewing.

I had been wondering why a lot of things were going the way they were. I, the girl who can go through an 800 page book in 4hours, had trouble reading sentences. I slept 12 or more hrs of sleep every day. I didnt like art, and I hated being with people, but couldnt say it because that would be mean. I was scared of going outside, and I messed up everything.

So now I am home. I am getting my money back for school. I dont know where I am going, or what I am going to do.

"There is a time to understand, a time to hurt, a time to heal. There is a time for fighting, a time to live, a time to die. A time to scream, a time for silence. A time for truth---You can survive. There is a time for us to shine. This is the time of our lives..."

I just wish it was as easy to believe it as to hear it.

Sorry that Im not calling you guys to explain. Its easier this way.

jesus chrits....christ. poeple are funny when they ARE drunk. I pushed nikkia dn she fell. into the fan.

We are watchign Ghotst ship I tinmlkkqejwehfbv.iQBIWE;B...............iM SORRY Im angry. I cant type.





goodbye.

So last night was fun. We had a few of the girls spend the night in mine and Nix's room. We went out to McDonalds at like 10pm and thought Ann was dying in the back seat. We watched How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days. Got told at least three times how loud we were being. I got in a fight with a garbage can, and incidentally it was a draw. I deformed the thing, and it gave me four bruises on my inner thigh. Yes, I said inner thigh. Anywho, Ann, Nikki, and Nina were dying because of it, while Robynne was too tired to even talk. Funny as hell. Oh, and Robynne's Bang Bang Blanket had a white spot. lmfao.

On weekends there is at least five parties going on in walking distance. All welcome. Some even have bodyguards.wftaykm? 5 dollars a cup for all you can drink beer and wop. 1 shots, 2 dollar body shots, and on fri. mixed drinks are all you can drink 5 dollars as well. Fucking hot as hell in some of the basements but fun nevertheless.

On weekdays, find some people with there door shut and lotsa voices, and they prolly have a couple bottles of vodka in there room. lol. getting drunk in the dorms is so much fun. drunk people are funny in general, and horny. Damn....


IM hot, and food is comng soon. Goodnight all. <3

drinking is fun.........


Im a lil tipsy. But not much.

<3 you all.